Just spent 3 weeks in a partial hospitalization program. Felt so much better while I was there. Came out excited and ready to move forward with my life, and some plans.
Crashed immediately. Can't concentrate. Can't focus. Can't do ANYTHING other than sit at the computer in my pajamas clicking around blogs etc. I feel AWFUL about it. I'm not even enjoying myself or doing anything production. And I have all these plans just hanging over my head. All I can do is go back to bed when I am finally too overwhelmed.
Sigh.
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Experiences of living with bipolar disorder. Symptoms, medications, mood swings, hospitals, doctors, therapists, treatments. Anything else I feel like writing about related to the illness as it affects my life and family. Physical fitness and wellness too, as I attain it!
About Me
- Just a Real Life Gurl
- Midwest, United States
- MY LIFE: I have a family that I neglect. I used to have hobbies that I loved but now I don't do them. I used to have a job but now I can't work. I need to lose weight, and recently joined a gym with my daughter. I hope it helps. Now I spend a lot of my time in Second Life™ searching for meaning in a world that is essentially meaningless. I gave up on Real Life, because I could make no sense of it. MY ILLNESS: Nervous breakdown, hospitalizations, ECT. You know, the usual. I may feel unique compared to everyone I know, but compared to other people with bipolar disorder, I'm just one more lost soul. My body is extremely resistant to treatment right now, and therapy isn't getting me anywhere either. Stuck in a black depression that just will not end. Flights of mania over top of it periodically, but the depression never leaves, and the mania manifests itself as paranoia, anger, and excessive spending. MY INTERESTS: Reading, gardening, cooking, photography, scrap booking, exploring and creating in the metaverse.
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